Monday, November 17, 2008

The bad and the good

My weekend was bad and good. Friday started off well enough (including yoga and weights) but Friday evening ended badly. I don't want to share too much about it (I'm still working it all out in my head) but suffice it to say, Stephen said something I felt was extremely hurtful and unsupportive but he thinks he was just being honest. He told me that he doesn't think I should try to run a full marathon (after my half is over in December) when I weigh 190 lbs. He thinks it would be too hard on my joints, especially the knees. I took it as him saying that he didn't believe in me which led to me crying in the restaurant where we were having this conversation. I understand what he was trying to say...I don't think running a full marathon weighing 190 lbs is a great idea either but I'm not waiting around until I lose weight to do something. It really brought back all these emotions of when I was younger and my dad would doubt everything I did or put me down. I understand having doubts about someone's abilities but you shouldn't always say what you're thinking. Just because you think something (whether it's true or not) doesn't mean it needs to come out of your mouth.

Friday night I didn't sleep well at all but Saturday morning I still managed to spend some time at the gym. Then Saturday we did some more running around and spent some time talking about Friday evening's conversation. He apologized and we're better now...I don't know that I've forgiven him 100% yet but I'm still working it out in my head and trying to separate what Stephen said from what my dad used to do.

But on to the good part...I ran 11 miles yesterday!! Woohoo!! It took me two hours and 35 minutes (for a blistering 13:40 minute mile pace). This time I remembered my fuel belt and had 10 oz of water, 10 oz of G2 and jelly beans with me. I used the jelly beans about half way through and drank the water and G2 whenever I felt like I needed it. The bottom of my feet were extremely sore last night...I got up to go to the bathroom around 2 in the morning and it felt like I was walking on needles. But this morning they don't hurt anymore. My thighs are a little sore but it's mainly when I've been sitting for a while so I've been trying to remember to get up from my desk and walk or stretch every hour. I'm going to do about an hour long walk today just to keep the blood circulating in my legs.

Today's Plan:
Activity: 1 hour walk at lunch
Breakfast: 1/2 cup oatmeal, 1/3 cup cranberries, 1 banana, 1 tbsp PB
Lunch: 3 cups spaghetti squash with 1 cup spaghetti sauce, 1 Rachel's yogurt
Snacks (if needed): popcorn, orange
Dinner: Sun Dried Tomato Burgers, Roasted Potatoes, Green beans


Jen said...

Oh Maris...I am so sorry to hear that...

I really don't know anything about running, but I don't see why running a marathon at any weight is different than running long distances on any other day??? I don't think that's a fair thing for Stephen to say...and I think that, yeah, you have every right to feel hurt by it...he should support you!!

Running is tough on your joints no matter what, but this is a goal, a healthy goal at that and I think that he should support you.

SeaBreeze said...

Good for you for completing 11 miles. That is a huge feat. I am beginning to miss my long runs and you may have inspired me to go back to them. The weather here has just been so poor of late.

How do you stay motivated for 2.5 hours?

Sara said...

Running at 190 will obviously be tough and will be tougher on your joints. But it does not mean you should not do it or that it will be bad for you. Actually it will great for you!! I think his honesty was more of a "looking out for you" sort of honesty. Still hurtful and still off track.

Yay for the 11miles!! That is awesome!!

Bi0nicw0man said...

Gah, why is it that men stick their feet in their mouth even when they are desperately trying not too? I'm sure he thought he was saying the right thing and had no idea that it would bring up past emotions for you. Still it was crappy to pull it out in public. I'm glad you are working it out.

I can't believe your run! God girl, you have such motivation. I get bored after 10 minutes!! Good job!

Juice said...

Ugh - I can totally relate to the "helpful" comment that strikes a little too close to past baggage. Hope you can get past it quickly. And way to go on the 11 miles! What a feat!